March 28, 2011 § Leave a comment
It’s easy for me to get carried away. I do it all the time. But eventually, I always find myself floating back to the ground. And sometimes the feeling is that of being on a roller coaster. My stomach drops out and it’s easier to just hold my breath, then scream.
It’s easy for me to make up little dream worlds in my head. I’ve been doing that for years. Latching on to an ideal of perfection, until reality comes to blow it all apart.
These dreams are never real. And that is why you always wake up. Sweating and disoriented, wondering how you ever got there in the first place.
You always wake up.
And you always end up wanting something more than what you have.
And if you say that you don’t, then you are being dishonest.
And I’ve always been true to myself.
So I guess it’s time to start finding myself again. I guess it’s time to start building on my own foundation. My own dream world.
It’s time to get carried away. To dream and never wake up.
It’s time to make big decisions. To accept the fate. To accept the doom.